Current mood:

irate

Re: Camels and Straws
Seriously.  I really don't want to snap.  if I snapped I'd say something that would endanger a friendship with someone I have a lot of respect for.  But there are times when no one in the world is more infuriating.  Unresponsive, unhelpful, and when I get upset...the response is to give me space, give me time to calm down.  Sure, thats fine, nice and logical.  But to me it feels like I'm being shunned.  Like I am being punished.

What I need is not to be shoved aside...or tolerated in all my crazy ravings.  I need RESPONSE.  I need you to give a shit about what I'm saying.  I need to know that you're not just fucking with me.  Because when you ignore me, when you treat me like *i'm* crazy...it doesn't help.  

This is the third time.  After being assured again and again and again that I was NOT being fucked with, it turns out, we have very different ideas about what the exact definition of being fucked with is.  Lack of malicious intent does not mean you aren't still lieing to my face, and maintaining random pointless conspiracies.  I could threaten to block you off, cut you out of my social life because honestly, I really don't need this.  But I wouldn't be able to back that up.  Not in a hundred years.  I'm far too much of a social animal and most of the time you are a lot of fun to be around.  

I don't even know why I'm bothering with this in my journal.  You could read this whole thing and then give me a response like, "Is this Rhetorical?"

OH man.  You can shove it.  Say something like, "Hello?   I do not know who you are.  I hope I did not ruin your sleep."  

There it goes...hear that creaking?

*SNAP*